love

Wed, 16 Jan 2008 04:41:53 GMT

too much has been going on for me to update.. i don't know if i'm going to update at all anymore. good things happen all at once, then bad things happen all at once. i can only give it time, and i wish i never met you.

Wed, 02 Jan 2008 22:28:03 GMT

holy shit my life has just changed so much and i was not expecting it.

Tue, 25 Dec 2007 11:10:33 GMT

break has been amazing. so much fun and hilarious things. i have a ton of pictures to upload but i'll wait until break is done so i'm not posting a few here and a few there.

reconnected with my childhood best friend, we've been literally inseparable the past 4 or 5 days/nights. whenever we hang out again, it feels like we're 12 again. its so nice to have someone who knows everything about you inside and out, someone you can trust with your life. i have been completely carefree when it comes to the opposite sex and this is the feeling i've been waiting for. to not care, at all. i love it.
we've been going out til 10 am, living off vitamin water and weezy, and bonding like never before.

i don't want break to end, and maybe it won't. i don't know what i'm doing with my life.

christmas eve was nice, dinner was bangin. so far i got $180 and a can of mase. YESSS.
santa will be here in a few hours :)

ps- how about tila tequila show? i definitely WAS NOT expected Bobby to win, but i'm sooo psyched he did.
Jamie Lynn.. you made the right choice, proud of you my girl

Wed, 19 Dec 2007 08:29:18 GMT

I've been waiting so long to feel my fingers slide all down your spine

Wed, 19 Dec 2007 06:03:10 GMT

I like when we're walking and holding hands, and you walk just a little bit in front of me.
I feel so protected, so secure.. like nothing could ever hurt me.

Your thermal has been my security shield, but I'm giving it back to you now

Tue, 18 Dec 2007 04:39:15 GMT

i want to believe in the faith that grows but i'm having a pretty hard time.
the alcohol it permeates. and soon the cells give way, and cancel out the day.
but.somehow i still try to believe that
I'm the one for you cause I know all the things you'd like to do
I'm the fear in your eyes I'm the fire in your flies
I'm the sound that's buzzing around your head

Mon, 17 Dec 2007 03:07:19 GMT

"How torture is torture and humiliation is humiliation but only when you choose to suffer."

Chapter 5 in Choke amazes me

Mon, 17 Dec 2007 02:57:02 GMT

I want to be a lion
Everybody wants to pass as cats
We all want to be big big stars, but we got different reasons for that

Believe in me because I don't believe in anything

Wed, 12 Dec 2007 17:33:09 GMT

sleepovers were a success. miss everyone soooo much already!!
i should've took pictures, oh well
i need a new camera if i'm going to want to take any pictures any time soon

i go for all the wrong men.. i guess thats just part of growing.

friday night was fun :)

Mon, 10 Dec 2007 05:16:26 GMT

theres so much i want to say to you. i started typing it but deleted it, i'm not going to waste my time

Sun, 09 Dec 2007 17:21:49 GMT

the most attractive look for a guy:
care-free
i think thats why i think justin from the hills (audrina's ex-boyfriend) is so hot
i love when guys don't care about appearance, clothes, or anything else (MYSPACE)

Sat, 08 Dec 2007 04:34:28 GMT

done with guys for a while
(including dating)
focusing on new & old friends, family, school, & work
nothing else!
i know i don't need a guy to make me happy, now is the time to prove this to myself.

Fri, 07 Dec 2007 04:44:17 GMT

It's okay to lose your pride over someone you love
Don't lose someone you love though over your pride
Stick wit cha entree and get over your side

Thu, 06 Dec 2007 07:52:58 GMT

i want glen for christmas too.. hes so cute
my last couple entries have been friends only

Wed, 05 Dec 2007 16:53:21 GMT

"i was wondering if by some miracle i still had a chance with you and you'd let me make everything up to you... no bullshit. i can't believe what i passed up. i really wanna make it up to you, please."

<3

Tue, 04 Dec 2007 07:21:26 GMT

Mon, 03 Dec 2007 09:17:16 GMT

life life life.. slow down! geez. finals, work, work, work.
i work every single day except sunday
one day at a time :)

went to tom jones tonight with al & brendan. i really wanted this as a decoration for my desk so brendan stole it for me. quite possibly the nicest thing anyone has ever done for me in my entire life

we videochat sitting right next to each other

do you want free tickets to the philadelphia orchestra? he sells them. look at his work shirt

i need to start wearing make up more

Sun, 02 Dec 2007 06:47:30 GMT

tonight was proof that chivalry isn't dead :)

i'll update tomorrow, its bed time for this lil girl.
p.s..it will probably be a friends only update, so add me :P

Sat, 01 Dec 2007 02:03:22 GMT

hi kAYLA its alliee poo and your nakey :p

Sat, 01 Dec 2007 01:56:14 GMT

a year ago i was dreaming of where i am now.
now i dream of where i was then.
(bitter)sweetseventeensummers.andfalls.
i'm going to hurt everyone but myself for a change.
i'm not myself anyway.

Fri, 30 Nov 2007 03:32:04 GMT

sorry jay-z, but kanye did it better
i did a little more shopping today.. this is what i got

you wear the t-shirt under the grey sweater, then the vest.. it looks really cute
i got 2 really cute shirts from forever21 too but it would take me a year to find them on that website
i really wasn't too impressed with forever21's selection of clothes. i hope working at hollister hasn't corrupted my style at all. eh, whatever

everyone in my dorm is so fucking annoying
my boo might sleep over tonight :D

my life is about to change

Thu, 29 Nov 2007 07:30:30 GMT

TRAVELERS
Kayla Mraz

ITINERARY
Sunday, December 30, 2007
Alaska Airlines #1821
Operated by American Airlines
Depart: Newark-Newark Intl. (EWR) at 6:45 p.m
Arrive: Los Angeles (LAX) at 10:00 p.m

Thu, 29 Nov 2007 05:36:45 GMT

trend·y (trĕn'dē) pronunciation Informal.
adj., -i·er, -i·est.

Someone who isn't artsy enough to design their own clothes

FUCK THATS ME!!

Thu, 29 Nov 2007 03:28:12 GMT

And I'm hanging on your words,Like I always used to do
The words are used so lightly,
I only feel for you.
I only know because I carry you around In the background

I'm way, i'm way way way way way way way i'm away i'm way away in the background.

i'm scared.. i'll run. ((don't let me))

i've been working like everyday.. but i don't mind! i'm getting to know all the people really good and i like everyone so much. one girl just started today and shes so nice, we took our lunch together. ends up we were talking and shes been really good friends with this band I Am The Pilot for like 3 years, and i always had a crush and talked to the singer Chad (he has a yummy chest piece).. so we're going to their show in the city December 11th, should be lots of fun! i love new friends.
i don't think the faint is a good band. i've tried to get into them because i dig dancey tunes like that.. but i can't stand their music. does anyone like them? which songs are good by them if so?
so I got a check for $1550.00 for a photoshoot.. to make a long story short, i heard from another model it was a fake check and not to cash it. i deposited it before i had the chance to read her message. the bank told me it would take 2 business days to clear. i obviously didn't think it was going to clear, but it did! so today i treated myself to a little shopping, i honestly haven't been shopping in soo long.
i might splurge and go halfs with julie for my plane ticket for california this winter break tonight. when i go out there i'm applying for my residency because i've been thinking about moving out there and going to UCSB (santa barbara). all the dorms/apts are right on the beach.
at work we have a live video of Huntington beach playing.. i'm always so jealous. its always like 80 degrees there, even in the morning. i just don't know if i could ever pick up and leave my family like that. i'm not trying to worry about it though, i'm just going to take it day by day. so how are you?

what i got on my widdle shopping spree today:

yeauh im obsessed with legwarmers

armwarmers?? yeauh i dont know how thats going to look. got them because we could only wear navy, white, and grey to work and they go . i'm a daring person. armwarmers ooohhh soo daring

brendans visiting me at work tomorrow :)

much needed update #3

Wed, 28 Nov 2007 06:03:17 GMT

i'm not jealous, i just really can't stand her
lets see if anyone can guess who i'm talking about

1) you're ugly
2) you have really bad eyebrows
3) you brag about sleeping with guys in bands (lol craig owens)
4) you have like freaky ass scene hair now
5) you didn't even complete 8th grade
6) without myspace you would hang yourself from the rafters in the garage
7) you think you're so clever with your little organization that will not amount to anything, which this organization also goes against EVERYTHING YOU ARE
8) you don't know how to apply eyeliner
9) you have really really bad eyebrows
10) you deserve the bathe in urine

seriously i want people to guess who i'm talking about.. it will be funny